car_men_09_moa's Journal

5:09pm: To berkley!
This entry is meant for a Berkley. If your name is berkley and you're on my friends list then that means YOU!

I cannot find a nice, fashionable coat no matter where I look. My mom bought me one for christmas but it didn't really fit so we took it back and it's been this whole saga. Do you recommend ANYWHERE to go? It seems like i've looked everywhere.
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5:50pm: Christmas was pretty good. I've been sick all week so I wasn't that excited but there's something about the holiday that's so peaceful. I bought all my presents at the very last minute including the earring studs I got my father. I love my family. How many people have bought their Dad's earrings for christmas? (and he loved them ha)
Merry Christmas all!

8:05pm: Marriage
This wedding project is driving me crazy. I've made up my mind to elope. This is ridiculous. I've been working on it for 6 weeks and the week before its due (Finals WEEK) and I'm not even half done. F U Spieg!

2:25pm: So I just took the Act for the last time. I'm not doing it anymore. The only reason I did it this time was because if I get one point higher I can get $3000 more from IU. But even if I dont get it I dont want to take the test any more. O god I hope I got that one point though.

but yea, I have just recently practiced Nichiren Buddhism and I'm really enjoying it. My Dad helped me and it's the most soothing practice I've done so far. It's helped me channel into such a better place. I'm so thrilled to have found something that works for me. It doesn't even feel like a religion, it's just more of a practice at finding your inner happiness. Also, It's pretty much the complete opposite of Christianity. Instead of being born with sin and having to be purified, with Nichiren you are born with all these good things inside that every person is capable of experiencing- the practice just helps you bring those things out more in your daily life.

5:20pm: Today
Well I'm very happy that I got all my college applications finished. NO MORE ESSAYS! I even got a reply from IU already.....I'm IN! Now my Mom's working on getting a job at IUsouthEast and we'll be pretty set for tuition. (pretty set meaning half off)lol
But yeah I was so happy when I found I got in. I mean I knew it was probably going to happen but it still didn't take any of the excitement away. I was pumped.

BTw.. if any wants any senior pictures let me know. I have thousands and they all need homes.

6:46pm: I love my friends. I got to see almost all of them this week and it was simply spectacular. Everything and everyone made me feel so much better and now im pumped for red/white week. yeah BEAT MALE!

8:22pm: Has anyone ever been just kinda stuck in a relationship? I don't know what to do. I like my boyfriend a lot but im not uber happy being in this relationship, but i'm not unhappy either. There's just no real spark anymore and we're so completely different. He's older, lives far away, and works all the time. I'm younger, in need of some direction, and I go to high school. Although, I really dont want to be alone right now which may sound cowardly. Probably because it is. I don't know. My problem is that I can't let my guard down to these people I date. And when I do find someone I really care about, usually unexpectedly, there's always some big circumstance or complication that prevents anything real from igniting.
Maybe I should just shut down and wait for college.

8:11pm: I'm rather tired of college shit. I mean I kind of just ignored everyone when they were complaining about all this stuff last year. But yea now im giving a public livejournal apology to those people because yeah you were right. This shit sucks ass!!!

6:45pm: So Alaina and I were talking today and we are both absolutely amazed at how some people (who are SENIORS IN HIGH SCHOOL)haven't matured since 6th grade. I mean these chicks are getting so bent out of shape about the most ridiculous of things that Alaina and I couldn't be less chill about. I don't know man I'm tired of her anyway, I refuse to sink to her level and satisfy her with an immature response. It's over, I dont care as long as she stays away from my car. If she touches it I'll hit her. I knock her fucking down in school if i have too I don't care. If i mention getting a referral in the next few weeks you'll know why.

2:21pm: So this weekend I went down to Western for this 'focus on western' college visit.
It was really cool I had a lot of fun because it was the first home football game and everyone was out and having fun, being crazy. I hung out with david doolittle and matt wheatley for a long time. We stood near a pile of shit and watched people step in it, and then laughed at them. WOhoo collllegee!

4:41pm: NEW CARRRR
I am very happy with my new red volvo. Ive worked the entire summer for this and I finally have it. It has Sirius radio and everything. I needed help figuring out how to use it but no matter.

8:22pm: hello all,

so school's going pretty well minus missing all my friends from last year. I got amazing classes to make up for it though. I switched into MR. TAYLOR'S AP PSYCH!!!
I'm ridiculously excited about it. Also, got out of Crain's, so my schedule is officially perfect and I am ready to proceed with the greatness.

Hopefully, I'll be getting a cute red volvo soon that I really like and I basically can't wait because I've been car-less for quite awhile now. I know Ian will be happy he doesn't have to drive all the way to highlands now that I'll have a car.

hope everyone's enjoying their college experience. I miss you very much.
~carmen

11:26am: Schedule
Red Day
1) Crain 0Adv humanitites
2) photo2
3) Wright - Adv eng
4) stottman Ap psych

White Day
1) Relationships
2) Study hall
3) Rash -Ap stats
4) Aide

Tell me about crain? I've gotten mixed reports

9:35pm: We looked at a red volvo today. It's so beautiful. I love red!!! It has a shit load of miles on it though but still we'll see. It's 2800 and I just have 2100 plus I'll need money for gas, etc. but again we'll have to see how generous my Dad's feeling this time next week.

I'm leaving work in like 2 weeks to have a little time to get ready for school. I don't want to leave. The zoo has given me so much this summer it's unreal. Money$(resulting in car), boyfriend, productively spent time, new business skills, the list goes on and on.

But yeah I miss zak bushon though. So if you are out there somewhere you should give me a call.

Anyway, I'm almost done with harry potter so I'm gonna get on that shit.

10:45pm: Today was rather interesting at work. I got an employee of the month award at the staff meeting. It's nice to get recognition at work. We really work our asses off 8 hours a day and I think everyone needs a pat on the back every once in awhile. It was a motivation to know I can actually do alright in the real world and not just in the surroundings of my high school.

Anyway, today I busted someone for shoplifting. He argued with me for a second but then he gave the item back because he couldn't show me a receipt and didn't know how much it was or anything. I guess he was just embarrassed because it was really obvious that he was guilty. I mean I was watching him the entire time.

I worked at splash park today and talked to this really cool lifeguard for a solid 3 hours of my shift. We work within 10 feet of each other and there was a load of downtime today for some reason. I've been thinking about him a lot and it raised my spirits pretty much the whole day. He's going to help me salvage the cd player/radio from my car.

A month left of summer. What will the new year bring?

7:26pm: Seafood is awesome. (oysters especially)
Beware sea creatures of the world...i'm out to eat you all.

12:05pm: My car is a goner. And pretty much my whole life went with it.
I got into an accident on the highway last night when a giant car came into my lane and i swerved 3 times and ended up crashing into the barrier at like midnight. We don't have collision insurance because it wasn't worth buying it for such an old car. My parents are out of town so I had to wake my grandma up to come get me.
To be honest it doesn't look like i'm going to have a car again ever. But it's my fault. I wanted to play adult so here's what the world shot back in my face. Everything I knew before this was wrong.

3:01pm: ACT
Sooooo...I took the ACT. It wasn't as terrible as I'd thought it would be. I didn't finish the math or science and I know I could do so much better on the writing. But english and reading I kicked ass.
So I guess we'll have to wait and see.
Wish me luck!!

11:00pm: zoooooooo
I love my job at the zoo. How many people can really say that they LOooooove their job? I'm very fortunate to have found one that suits my personality. It's 6.75/hr (with my raise from last year), and really reasonable hours 10-6:30. I Get to sleep in, and stay out late without interfering with my work schedule. Plus, getting time off is easy as hell. It's not really asking anyway, its more like letting them know when I'm not coming in.
ahhh yes summer is going pretty well so far. No complaints.

7:22pm: Finally smoked pot.
It was kinda nice at first. I really chilled out and didn't really say anything for a long time. But later when I was trying to sleep I was having trouble breathing (something i've grown accustomed too), so that kinda got to me.
I dunno I see why a lot of people do it though but whatev.

8:32pm: So I bailed on school yesterday so I could finish my photo project, and study for 2 tests. I've never done that before but I can definitely see myself doing it again.

The photo book is pretty cool. I like the narration pretty well. It makes you go hm...
6 more day guys! (5 for some lucky seniors)

9:50pm: photo book roll
So my photo book is less than inspiring. I feel bad because I want to do exceptionally well on this assignment not just for me but for Mr. curtis because frankly his pride is much more important than mine. I could not take him being dissapointed in my project. couldn't take it all.
Hopefully book roll number 2 will be more successful.

8:27pm: I am home.
Spring break kinda blew except for the 3 hours I got to freak dance with Katrina Soaper.
Anyway, Missed everyone
so I hope u all had a fun on spring break.

8:55am: I'm having the worst spring break ever. Waking up at 6 am everyday. Playing in stupid games everyday. I DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE. My coach is treating us all like crap.
I am miserable.

7:09pm: truman
So we're doing the truman trials in Mr. Morgan's class tomorrow and he's picking a few random seniors to be the jurors. All I can say is if happens to one of you and you decide to not vote for my case then we are no longer friends.
Finished!
Over. Done.